The Sparklies
Attempts to look at it fragment in blinks, elusive, phantasmal,
I look around the corner and it moves around the next,
It is that light that cannot illumine itself, remains aloof,
That irreducible spark one can neither measure nor find,
Not in the center nor the corners nor the unity of mind,
That is, this me, who claims identity, these I’s of ours,
Who can claim defiance of asomatous time, concealer of vacant death,
We, who clutch tickets to Heaven, reincarnation, a “rebirth?”

Or to be lost, unmade, unexistent, alike time before time
And then one day I met the Sparklies
Mowing the lawn, stung by a yellow jacket,
On the calf, annoying, ow, I left the mower
And pasted baking soda on the wound,
Resting I thought no more of bees, anaphylaxis was not a word,
Neither I nor my brothers had ever been allergic to anything
A month later, Labor Day, I mow again, knowing where the nest was,
I mowed them over once, mowed them over twice,
Felt the ground give softer under foot there
And come around the third time - they were waiting,
A circling cone of vigilance, I naïve of danger,
And they stung me 5 times,
Panic, running, brushing bees from socks, legs, under a glove,

I removed a detached stinger with my thumbs
While it pulsed stuck in my shin
Countless details too long for metric time
And tedious to re-describe in rhyme
And I lay upon the driveway,
911 having been called,
Medtechs hovering over,
When there, in the corner of my eye I saw their yellow swarm,
The Sparklies,
They, the absence of input from senses growing faint,
Twinkling stars and colored bars too peaceful to do harm,
Well knowing I was going,
I wondered only in what form I would awake,
With not a moment more for thoughts to make